I'm no superman

Not having healthcare is tough. I'm still having knee issues that are a concern.

When I push myself I internally mess up my side. I can tell based on the blood when I umm you know.

Sunday my ankle gave out so I tried to do some lifting nothing over 20 but aparently it was too much. Today going to the bathroom was quite bloody.

Yet for my injury I got nothing. That's tough. To not be able to lift 20 pounds with out having it be a bloody mess when I went to the bathroom a few hours later.

Sorry for the bad topic. Just frusterating

I look, act, walk fine but there is a fine line I walk. I'm in constant pain and it does not take much to mess it up.





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Shaking things up

Need to try shaking things up. I've been doing well as far as my focus goes but I've been limited to my computer access which has not been helpful



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Routine

Wow it does not take much to throw off ones routine.

I had gotten a cheap mini DVD player and last night I figured take it easy and watch a movie. I get settled in the back seat and hear a noise. It's the cops driving by. It throws you off because I'm sure to a extent a car being in a truck stop is more about staying quiet and out of the way. The cop had to of seen me. I skipped themovie and went to sleep early. When I get up I turn the car on to defrost the inside of the car which freezes up from my breathing. I get out of the car to go to the front and not more then 40 ft away was 2 cop cars on either side of another car. I get mine and drive off. It's just unsettling because for a month I'd been here and felt unnoticed and that made me more at ease.

So the next part of my day I breakfast at McDonalds. Yea I know not the best for me but if you can find a good cheap breakfast let me know. I also go there because I know where the 2 outlets are so I can charge my cell phone. The iPhone goes through too much battery. So I go to pay and my card is declined. I had cash but given my situation to be told your card is declined throws you. Good thing I had cash. (later I found out it was McDonalds system. )
So then I go to both booths that have a outlet. Both filled and my phone battery was down to 10%. So I wait and wait and 1 finally left. But now I'm behind for my day. I finish but I'm feeling very tired. Had a few nights of not sleeping well. So I find a large parking lot and decide to take a nap. I get up and it's 3:00 and so far all I've done today is have breakfast.

So now I think I will go to the gym and workout for a bit. It sucks cause it was a real waste of a day. No job search.


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Location:153rd St W,Apple Valley,United States

That's what I get

Skipped the gym today. I had been going I think 8 days straight and there were some body parts that needed a rest.

So I figure I'd go to my spot early and try to get a good nights sleep. I'm there not even 1 min and a cop drives by. Did not stop but not sure how he did not notice me. Has me a little spooked.

That's the down side to the warmer 20 degree weather. The car does not frost up for hours. It steams up which stands out like a sore thumb. On the colder nights all the cars frost over and unless someone goes around really looking it is easy to stay out of sight

It sucks that I'm at a truck stop where a trucker sleeping is normal but a person sleeping in a car is looked down on. I get they don't want all kinds of people doing it. But if you don't allow it someplace all were going to do is be more sneaky about it. I'm quiet, not drawing attention to myself,not hurting anyone. So my hope is the cop noticed me but simply did not care.


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Haiti

It looks like there is a small chance I might be going. Got the word today. It depends more on that end. I figured I could use some good karma.

I will star blogging more in the next day or two. Weekdays are for job search


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I took this pic of myself a few nights ago. I was not feeling sad but looking at it made me sad. There is a part of me that has not fully realized that I lost the house. Because doing so then forces me to question the legal system. I won my case. A judge ruled NWA wrong. I followed the rules. So all of this has to be a mix up...... And that's been the hard part. I did not lose my house cause of a layoff or the economy. I lost it because NWA did not want to play by the rules.


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Could be worse spots

As much as you can like living out of your car the spot I have found is not a bad one. I'm 100 yards from a gas station, McDonalds, 24 hour laundry place. It's a truck stop that's off the beaten path. It's quiet except for the humm of the truck motors going which I find oddly soothing.

The cold has really not been a issue. It's been my knees. I don't know if it's cramps or poor bloodflow or just because I have to sleep in a odd position because the car is small but I get up several times a night to stretch. Considering I don't usually sleep well in a bed (not due to knees) I have not noticed a lack of my usual sleep.

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First post

First post just checking it out. More later today



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